Single Mom !

Let me get this out .. Not every single mom, CHOOSES to be a single mom !


I feel better now.


What I mean is, being a single mom is hard !  It isn't something that most people would aspire to.  It isn't something that most people grow up dreaming to become.  When I was a little girl, I didn't think, in my wildest dreams, that I would be a single mom, to two kids.


I wanted to be a teacher, or a lawyer.


When I became a single parent to my son, I made a vow to myself that if I ever had any more children, it would be with the man I wanted to spend my life with, to get married to, and to raise the kids together.


My ex and I were together for over 3 years when we decided to try for a baby.  We tried for 8 months, and I finally got pregnant.  As soon as I told him, he was no longer happy about it.


I guess the having sex with no condom was what he was wanting.


Now don't get me wrong !  I love my kids so very much.  They are the only reason that I am still here on this earth.  If I did not have them, I would be with my Mom right now.  I wake up every morning for them. I live my life for them.


Being a single mom is really tough. I just make it look easy !  One thing to remember, there is never "you" time. If the oldest is out, and the baby is asleep, there is still tons of stuff to do around the house, that can't wait. I can't forget about housework, put if off until later.  Otherwise it does not get done, it gets to be a bigger chore.  I stay home with the kids, and for that I am happy. I am meant to be a stay at home mom.  I am quite good at it.  


I do miss being able to go out and work though. I miss the freedom of leaving the house, without the kids in tow.  I miss talking to other adults.  I miss making money. I miss having the possibility of making friends.  LOL


Most women do not choose to be single parents, but we do choose whether or not to be good at it !