My Mom and I :)

My Mom and I :)

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Dear Depression

Dear Depression:

Kiss my ass !

You have been nothing but a major shithead to me, for a long time now. I hate you. I hate that you can control me. I hate that you decide how my day is going to go. 

You know what ?? I had plans today. My son invited a friend over, and we were all going to go to the beach for the day.  I even got everything ready to go, and then I decide that I no longer want to. Fuck you. 

Now, I don't know what to do. I feel happier when I am outside in the sunshine. I wish things were easier.

When I get sad, I cry. When I think about Mom, I cry. When certain commercials come on, I cry. When Olivia does something new, I cry. When my son says something jokingly to me, I cry.

You know what ??  I am tired of crying !! I hate this.

I have decided, that fuck it, I may not be going to the beach now, but I am going to do something I have never ever done before ! I am going to do something that my Mom loved to do.  Maybe I will find out that I love it as well.

I am going to garden !  I have a garden outside that came with the house. There are weeds in there (at least I *think* they are weeds !) and grass in it as well that all needs to be taken out.

Olivia and I are going to go in the backyard. She can walk around and play with her toys, and I will garden.

Fuck you depression. 

You do not win this round !


  1. You go lady! Tell him. Kick depression's ass to the curb. You don't need him! You don't need anyone (or anything)! You go mama!

  2. I'm so proud of you, Amy!! You are doing great!! Keep it up!! Kick depression to the curb!!!